EMBRACING MYSELF... FINALLY | Clarksville TN Boudoir
As a teen I use to take self portraits so often. I use to document everything, and every moment and feeling I experienced. As I grew older and life happened, like it always does. I stopped taking portraits. I stopped feeling as though my life was worth documenting. I stopped seeing myself as beautiful. My entire adult life I saw the beauty in everyone and everything thing else but I could never see it in myself, Its like I didn’t allow myself to love and accept who I am. I criticized everything about myself, my body , my choices. Why wasn’t I skinner? Why wasn’t I further on in life than I planned to be? Why did I have a child at 20 years old? Why was I in a relationship I wasn’t happy in? It was like everything just didn’t fit, I was just a passenger being driven through my life. I was out of control and didn’t see the point in documenting these feelings, these moments.
It took years of hard work, of deep self work to get out of that dark place I was in years ago. Ive done so much work on myself, my relationships and the way I view my life. Ive broken myself down to pieces and I have figured out a lot about who I was then, who I am now, and who I want to become.
I am now 27 years old, its been over 10 years and I can finally say that I am beginning to love myself again. To see the beauty in body, the body that housed my now 7 year old son. I can now see the beauty in my choices and understand why I made them. I can now look back and instead of criticism, I give myself grace.
Self love is a crazy thing, it’s a crazy journey that we, as woman and humans will be on our entire lives. I want you to know that no matter what stage you’re in, on your journey. You’re not alone. You’re allowed to love yourself. It’s taken me 10 years to realize this, and now I want to share it with as many women as I can. The reason I opened my business was to try and help women find that love, the one way I know how. By taking portraits. We are flawed but thats what’s beautiful.
I haven’t felt this “ME” in a while… and I chose to document it. Finally…
